B Writes

Peace at what cost? Worthy and unworthy hostages and applying the propaganda model to modern conflicts

Image-technologies including ai/phones/tv are all evil/society-breaking

His pursuit of his aims, outmoded at the moment of his birth and severely outmoded by the time of his death – a perverse permanently wistful quest – set him at odds with society around him

“Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but that’s no matter—tomorrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther. . . . And one fine morning——

So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.”

Rome experience

H

A world beyond worlds

Impossible fleeting eclipse vision that was a thousand miles aways anyways

A terrible impossible unknown joy for a future man

H was a universe to behold

She beheld me and i couldn’t breathe

For even a moment

Where is she now?

She lives still. So does m, so does f, and contrary to public demand so do i. Experiencing something transcendent – all these figures – is a responsibility impossible to live up to. I am desirous of that outcome but ashamed and mute. I saw the future of culture and couldn’t express it artistically or formally. And I am rended in two forever. Maybe l was the real future, and i was ashamed and insecure and shrinking and ultimately disappointing of a psyche. And nothing to do now. But that was horrifyingly real and this with – is manageably distant. I am pathetic; do I deserve better? What is better for the abortive shrinking man? I cannot address the scope of opportunity that i’ve experienced. 

“Paved over 20 years ago” – take the opportunities that exist today if you care.

a: i think i did?