B Writes

It’s B, and I have returned to this site with big plans! I have spent the last year very busy with completing my undergrad and transitioning from a rather insolvent-in-distraction runout of my college experience to a new period in life that has repeatedly reminded me of the basic facts that I have to create an opportunity to be given an opportunity, and that I have to make it happen myself. As any visitor to my blog may have seen, I have not exactly been doing that with this site (or my life at large recently). I hate making promises because at this moment there is a long track record of my words ending up empty, and even though it is my own actions which animate those words and either give them the weight of deception or the ease of truth I feel that I want to speak frankly about what I hope to do here. Having just moved into a new apartment I am in an opportune phase to begin a new habit, and I believe creating art is perhaps the most important hobby that anybody can maintain. Part of my issue is that I get too wedded to concepts like maintenance or ‘creating a routine’ and forget that a habit is just doing something consistently, beginning with something as simple as this. I want to write articles, short stories, lists, literally whatever – I want to get my voice out there and get to work through my ideas, fears, etc. while moving towards having an audience and getting the first half dozen stories out (the general concept being that it is rarely one’s first article/novel/short story that catches on), improving my technique all while building a portfolio that will enable me to apply with confidence to the genre of job which currently eludes me as a recent graduate with little to no experience; as I said, in this day and age one must create an opportunity to be given an opportunity. 

I have a number of ideas and subjects which I hope to cover on this channel, but something important enough to make it into this meta-level discussion of the blog is my total rejection of AI – anything you see on this site will be either by my hand or properly cited to the best of my ability, and if I ever publish my drawings that would become immediately apparent LOL. As a fresh college graduate my frustration and obvious anxiety about the proliferation of AI will likely shine through, so it’s worth just stating explicitly that I will never be using it and believe continuous technological innovation without serious societal ethical introspection is shockingly dangerous. I will almost certainly be giving my reasons for this rejection on here (I have already written an article on the subject, although I will likely edit it slightly to avoid it being quite so directly targeted.)

Certain people close to me already know who I am and it really isn’t difficult to find out, but I feel a certain amount of pause at the discussion of any serious / potentially compromising topic thanks to the potential ramifications in others’ perceptions of me. I am consciously choosing to accept the possibility of others learning more about me and my habits in life. I will not be able to write the fiction and non fiction I am setting out to prove that I am capable of writing if I pull my punches and hide behind some pretended moderate position – I am furious, terrified, and deeply determined to express my experience of (post)modernity in a variety of ways. Stay tuned for my first article, which I hope to get out by the end of next week; no promises, however!